the butterfly conservatory

hi! my name is hazel! i currently live in new york city and work in the chemicals industry. in my free time i read, write, run, boulder, cook, and go to shows. some of my writing is below.

currently reading: the possessed, the search for modern china currently cooking: applesauce tofu currently bouldering: v4
currently listening: call it easy by racing mount pleasant

if you want to get coffee with me or otherwise meet me email me at hazel@hjelfman.com.


    there is no political solution to hopelessness 21 Jul, 2026
    there can just be something wrong with you 11 Jul, 2026
    sometimes you gotta shit yourself in public 09 Jul, 2026
    Cautionary Note: AI in Factory Automation 06 Jul, 2026
    Social Graces Exist for a Reason 28 Jun, 2026
    Isolation and the Backrooms 25 Jun, 2026
    AI as a Democratizing Tool 23 Jun, 2026
    vibecamp 5 22 Jun, 2026
    isolation 14 Jun, 2026
    consumptive cities 09 Jun, 2026
    cooking for a crowd 06 Jun, 2026
    attention 08 May, 2026
    can you hear it too? 08 Apr, 2026
    wfh 04 Apr, 2026
    walkabout 26 Mar, 2026
    dissenting dinergoths 19 Mar, 2026
    friction and everyday life 16 Mar, 2026
    castration movie two 03 Mar, 2026
    dodgeball 10 Feb, 2026
    representing modern reality in literature 06 Feb, 2026
    extending the engineering method 02 Feb, 2026
    an unexpected tenderness 25 Jan, 2026
    against optimization 20 Jan, 2026
    castration movie one review 12 Jan, 2026
    effective anarchism 08 Jan, 2026
    energy balances 06 Jan, 2026
    notes on vegetarianism 04 Jan, 2026
    eternity 07 Sep, 2025
    adulting 26 Aug, 2025
    running 04 Aug, 2025
    slopworld 27 Jun, 2025
    partial american cultural victory 25 Jun, 2025
    discipline 03 May, 2025
    y'all can't do anything 01 May, 2025
    nyc cityscapes 22 Mar, 2025
    the birth of venus 22 Feb, 2025
    montaigne and the world 17 Feb, 2025
    on montaigne 15 Feb, 2025
    what does social media serve 08 Feb, 2025
    a small medium at large 01 Feb, 2025
    social catalysts 29 Jan, 2025
    brains and the mob 22 Jan, 2025
    happy new year! 01 Jan, 2025
    driving a car in hell 20 Aug, 2024
    july wrap-up 01 Aug, 2024
    meet one hundred people; houston wrap-up 30 Jul, 2024
    problem in aisle five 17 Jul, 2024
    june wrap-up 01 Jul, 2024
    i don’t want a lot and i want it forever 24 Jun, 2024
    dallas 17 Jun, 2024
    may wrap-up 01 Jun, 2024
    what makes a place enjoyable to be in? 31 May, 2024
    thoughts on: from dawn to decadence 28 May, 2024
    notes on past modes of socialization 22 May, 2024
    duty 20 May, 2024
    internet socialization 16 May, 2024
    experimental writing pracice I 15 May, 2024
    demonic possession 14 May, 2024
    notes on aspiration 06 May, 2024
    burnt time 02 May, 2024
    tortured analogies department 01 May, 2024
    thoughts on: my year of rest and relaxation 30 Apr, 2024
    suffering 11 Apr, 2024
    reasons for exercise 03 Apr, 2024
    the south is terrible 19 Mar, 2024
    houston 14 Mar, 2024
    young love 26 Feb, 2024
    purposefully inscrutable 22 Feb, 2024
    morning 18 Feb, 2024
    young adult novels are bad for you 09 Feb, 2024
    the kids aren't alright. they will be. 08 Feb, 2024
    discussion of the discussion of the method 07 Jan, 2024
    the internet is driving you crazy 15 Oct, 2023
    amtrak 29 Aug, 2023
    belief 31 Jul, 2023
    Ideology 30 May, 2023
    Civic Irresponsibility 24 May, 2023
    Manic March #2-3: EPISTEMOLOGICAL CANCER 02 Mar, 2023
    Manic March #2-2: AUTOBIOGRAPHICAL ASPHYXIATION 02 Mar, 2023
    NASA JWST Archival Documents 21 Apr, 2022
    Manic March #30: Review 30 Mar, 2022
    Manic March #29: Vaults 29 Mar, 2022
    Manic March #28: A Recurring Nightmare 28 Mar, 2022
    Manic March #27: Things to Appreciate 27 Mar, 2022
    Manic March #26: Done Enough 26 Mar, 2022
    Manic March #25: The Tower 25 Mar, 2022
    Manic March #24: Greg Abbott Will Rot in Hell 24 Mar, 2022
    Manic March #23: Recovery 23 Mar, 2022
    Manic March #22: Migraines and Mushrooms 22 Mar, 2022
    Manic March #21: The Right to Die 21 Mar, 2022
    Manic March #20: Action Consistency 20 Mar, 2022
    Manic March #19: nightmare! nightmare! nightmare! 19 Mar, 2022
    Manic March #18: Polymetacognition 18 Mar, 2022
    Manic March #17: Categorization 17 Mar, 2022
    Manic March #16: Medicalization of Belief 16 Mar, 2022
    Manic March #15: Textured Cities 15 Mar, 2022
    Manic March #14: Self-Licensing Agents 14 Mar, 2022
    Manic March #13: Fix Your Hearts or Die 13 Mar, 2022
    Manic March #12: Revelation's Exponential Decay 12 Mar, 2022
    Manic March #11: Automated Web Design 11 Mar, 2022
    Manic March #10: ONE MOLECULE OF MERCY 10 Mar, 2022
    Manic March #9: It's Over, You Lost 09 Mar, 2022
    Manic March #8: First Order Platitudes, Second Order Advice 08 Mar, 2022
    Manic March #7: Migraines 07 Mar, 2022
    Manic March #6: Recommended Media 06 Mar, 2022
    Manic March #5: How to Reliably Induce Mania 04 Mar, 2022
    Manic March #4: Constrained Optimization 04 Mar, 2022
    Manic March #3: Weight Others Can Bear 03 Mar, 2022
    Manic March #2: That Which I May Own 02 Mar, 2022
    Manic March #1: Name Button 01 Mar, 2022

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